Unmatched Anesthesiologist

I migrated to the states in 2008 I was 35 years old and because I have been a good anesthesiologist for years I decided to take the USMLE exams no matter what ..The beginning was tough but I was determined ..long story short I tried to keep myself active practicing medicine as much as possible while taking the exams and waiting to become a citizen. In 2013 I became a US citizen and in 2014 I became ECFMG certified and thereafter I started to apply in match process for 4 years in a row and I got only one answer : sorry we are unable to provide you with an interview. Actually I could never know why..my scores were average not bad ..may be old graduation but I passed the exams recently refreshed up my knowledge I have been having good experience..may be my age I was in my early 40’s not that old I can do it …I have never got an answer why they were unable to give me a chance…I have a question I am American I passed the exams I deserve a chance I am not better than anyone but I was just denied from getting my job in my country without any specific reason without support just denial while bringing aliens with less scores less ability to communicate with less clinical experience ..is that fair??

I got back to my native country eventually. I am a good physician I could not give up my life’s purpose..which is serving people as a physician…I kept trying in some other fields like international fellowship I live out of the states working full time as attending so why not to spend a year or 2 in my beloved country as a fellow getting advanced training…again they gave me very tough time dealt with me poorly looking down at me let me feel like you have no rights aliens are superior to you….after long time and because I have a good long experience as pediatric anesthesiologist.

I applied for international pediatric anesthesia fellowship at a program and I was informed that I should get back to my native country immediately after completing the training and I was invited to attend observership when I got there I was informed that it would be illegal to provide 2 international fellowships in a row if I got one..however program director provided a young Chinese lady with 2 international fellowships in a row ?? in order to help her continue her life in the states..while I am begging for the chance ..and I discovered also that the same hospital provides another fellowship dedicated only for Chinese physicians..to my knowledge there is no specific fellowship program dedicated for American people exclusively ??…I accepted to wait the turn and I was told that the post was held for a physician also a young lady from Venezuela and she was a relative of one of the attending and her step 2 CS report was pending as that was mandatory for eligibility ..unfortunately she failed to pass the exam and I was also denied to take the post as she was promised the post no matter what ..I am just asking is that America my beloved country I have always dreamed to live in because of the rule of the law ..none is above the law..equal opportunity.. generosity…land of opportunities ….I got back with nothing except for broken heart.. offended ..feeling betrayed.. disappointed.

A year after I applied for another non accredited fellowship program..sorry to say the program director was enthusiastic for me until another candidate applied and supported by another surgeon working at the same center..I know her she was a resident at the same center in my native country however she is belonging to the same religious as the director and the surgeon they are Muslim….I am Christian. I just wish I could help my beloved country USA as a physician I am a good physician I am proud to be an American I am grateful to be an American …I just need to get an answer why? President Trump promised that Americans will no longer be forgotten…I am one of them.

Long story short I turned my back and it become too late for me.